sHe's DEAD

2011-04-11T00:58:00.002+08:00

Having a blog is so cool. It helps one to note down all nonsencical Emotions, Feelings, Thoughts in a chronological , manner. Sometimes when we look back at previous posts years back, we realise how much we've grown through those years... There's only so much that human mind can store, but a daily blog + memorable photos refresh those lost time. 2.5 - 3 yrs isnt really long. but im impressed by how much differences ive been thru... prehapes, that's e privilege of SingleHOOD! I hope to see myself really gg out of Singapore soon though... Give me a few more 2.5-3yrs..... :( The more I really hope for the right man whom I love him as much as he loves me, whom i know him as much as he knows me, whom will be willing to learn and grow old with me like how i would want to do likewise; the fated one who will appear at the right time under the right situation.

2010-07-19T11:56:00.002+08:00

You may not believe this...

Carmen frequents the gym almost daily and ran every other day.

im getttin ready to re-take my in-body composition analysis!!

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2010-07-11T21:54:00.000+08:00

... the great thing to learn about life is, first, not to do what you don't want to do, and, second, to do what you do want to do.

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2010-07-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

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2010-07-07T00:04:00.001+08:00

****! get me outta SG right NOW!
what a bad day with Ind***S~

PISS-ED DAY~~~

2010-07-04T23:56:00.002+08:00

Whoo...

Job-hoppin' on the way~

country-hoppin's next!

LET'S HOP, baby`

*Where's the dinner me and bimbo owe Mr Fung? Hmmmm

2010-07-03T00:19:00.001+08:00

2010-07-02T03:39:00.001+08:00

Alrights! I love my new blogskin.... prepare for more post. (i hope. :>)
i'm gonna peee n snooze!

2010-07-02T02:46:00.002+08:00

Hi dead blog,

Life's getting pretty well these days.. Simple, pack-ed monthly schedules yet spiced with lotsa memorable gatherings with bits of acquaintances here n there.

Yeps, I'm kinda starting to get use to such a balance between family, works, friends. And there seems to be no more room for bgr..

"Jinx" meet-up with Celine Teo today; Nice catching up with the LRMs at Timbre. Cool girls night-out with the Wild Cat - Celine Wah, Sexy babe Daphne, BIMBO MICHELLE!, and pamela (who always complain she's too old to club)

For those who are turning twenties, do try and recall back to your secondary school life. How different was it from now? What have your fellow teachers told you to cherish? When have we not forgotton those days when we defied those rules, turned a deaf ear to those advices, make a joke outta those words we thought were nonsense?

I remember, my Mother toungue teacher once said to my class ' cherish these last period of secondary school time with your classmates for you will never again get the chance to meet them up everyday, argue over minor matters, follow little trendy styles, like this anytime in the far future ever again!'

Now, I've finally understood what that meant. Have you?

I'm so glad we now have technologies and networking sites to bring us all back together...

p.s. I still have so many things that I wanna achieve now. The world is not all only about a single issue; it all comes in a package - love, friends, family, work, dreams, fun, goals, studies. I'd complain time's insufficient, life's too short for these so many undone to-do-things. Cherish life, my fellow friends. Persevere and u will find what you want!

Signin' Off...

2010-06-12T22:49:00.002+08:00

Hi PeeP!

yeah,, have been rather busy recently. With work, work, work & more work.
Hardly catch up wit GirlFr n Bimbo, let to say the rest of the many other peep..

So envious of Bimbo... get to meet so many new friend. :(
I shouldnt have gotten myself a new full time job. awww.......

Not only i get myself tied up with work,
Not only not meeting new people,
I AM SEEING WOMEN EVERYDAY!~
ohh..... how more boring can this be?

2 words to describe life now: NO LIFE.

and I cant help it! unless u can find me a better way to save up fast and sufficient for Australia next year.....

i'd better make it to Australia.. cox Much of my recent goals hasnt been met.
Think the last and only goal i could rmb hitting is to score in O levels...

oh well~ dear God, I needa power.........

Luckily for now, I have a few dinner gatherings to look forward to...

2010-05-30T20:53:00.001+08:00

heeellllooooo blog! :)

2010-05-30T20:50:00.000+08:00

2010-03-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

i miss....
i miss.....
i miss......
I MISS!

p.s. facebook's super lag!

2010-02-08T00:52:00.002+08:00

splitting headache. stupid fan!

perhape i should read those romance novels too! or fiction, michelle calls them...
adulthood's nearing. B OR I N~

met up with the old peep today.... hmm how nice. perhape one or o years later when we all meet up again. things would be so much different again. by then, we should all be gg our own separate path of life. im so looking forth to better years ahead.

2010-01-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

New Fav: Xiao long bao. yumyum~ :)

2010-01-22T01:50:00.000+08:00

insomia~

2010-01-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

CARMEN IS SO CONFUSED

is my subconscious making fun of me right now?

am i denying to admit i made a wrong choice to go into lrm
am i denying maths is what i really love to deal with rather than people

this is the point of time i really need to go and find out the answer. no one can help me. sitting down and think has got no use. i have to go out there and try!

okay. so i shall spend a year finding the answer to what i really want.
may God bless me that i will stay focus.

2010-01-19T00:49:00.000+08:00

M O N E Y ! ! !
money!!!
I need u.

fuck all the love.
money talks.

2010-01-17T17:50:00.000+08:00

i m so _ _ _ _ _ _ .

2010-01-06T21:54:00.002+08:00

i'm thining i might want to go into some science faulty... was doing facilities case study and there's this water challenge question.
went to the net to search..... found all the chemistry-related answer. Yes, its koonz, but it makes me kinda miss chemistry...
It's fun! but the prospect job careers sound boring...............................

50% gg Australia..... had nv tot of it before till recently. hmm, well, there's many 'never thought of it' in life.

i thought i'd nv want a muscular man when i was young, but know, i hate guys with no muscles.

Yeap, so life's kinda interesting this way uh.
haha.

p.s. i really want go to Barcelona. ;)

2010-01-03T21:59:00.001+08:00

2009-12-31T23:20:00.003+08:00

ever felt that the world's crashing?
ever felt the world's moving without u?
ever felt like no one's out there thinking of u?
ever felt that you are not loved?
ever felt wandering around with no goals?
ever felt there's no one to trust?
ever wanted your last breathe to come soon?
ever felt all those above all together at one time?
never felt so lost.....
it is really only when you've lost yourself and cant find it back that you really have lose the fight.

GoodBye 2009! I've lived a year with nothing worth remembering.

2009-12-28T21:26:00.008+08:00

The YEOS Trip
Genting Highlands
Beware of this YEOS witch; she's full of violence!

Sunway

This is how the YEOS women eat.The YEO model wannabe

2009-12-25T18:38:00.001+08:00

spending xmas'09 with a heavy heart.
something's suffocating the whole day..

2009-12-24T12:17:00.001+08:00

lIFE'S just so unpredictable.
and Love's worst.

2009-12-20T15:08:00.001+08:00

I WANNA STAY AT ANGSANA BINTAN AND NEVER RETURN!
CRUISE is indeed quite boring.... But i love the entertainers. and PAN JING MING! haha... he's a damn humorous waitress at Four Season. HE IS SO FUNNY AND CUTE! everyone agrees right!

2009-12-14T14:02:00.003+08:00

Should I bring my laptop along? hadnt done my projects yet..

finally, i get to leave this place for a good 10days.!
i still regreted not gg osip.

haha. it contridcitng. i look forward to gg outta singapore, but i get cant get my butt outta this chair to go and stay packing....

hopefully when i'm back, everyone would be on the right track. :D

2009-12-13T14:51:00.000+08:00

2009-12-11T01:19:00.000+08:00

2009-12-10T02:07:00.003+08:00

:D

Nope, no proper blogging again... Life's Mundane with an empty heart and when everything else is school...
Drifitng away from everything.
Luckily there still the Jurong people whom I can meet anytime. HEHEX :p
or else I can go stab heart emo and faint.

SEELAR ! I'm left alone in the single club again.
Loyal member.

Looking forward to my trips..... then prolly we'll have some nice long posts alrights. posts with pictures! not like michelle. WORDY ESSAYS wrote there meant for someone else to read one RIGHT!

Saturday's gonna be an interesting exciting day and night with my dear celine....

When am I ever gonna start my dance classes? when i find my salsa partner.. ;)
WAITING FOR SOPHIA = MIGHT AS WELL WAIT FOR ME TO BE OUTTA THIS SINGLE CLUB

Voodoo dolls and black magic... hmmm. i should make a trip down to some temple and wash away any spell anyone could have possibly casted on me uh...

my dad has been wondering if i've turned lesbian since i hadnt brought any boyfr back home for how long i couldnt rmb too! :D WTH I AM NOT OKAY! and my mum mistook susan as my new boyfr when he came up to get some things printed.
HEELLOOO~ u folks wanna marrry ur daughter off so fast uh! i'm gonna stick to free hostel mans!

and talking about hostel... I wish to go around staying in different estates in singapore. YEAH! to be completed: before I die. :D

OKAY. back to the usual topic: what to do after diploma?
i really still hadnt any clue. that's really bad!
See, this is that kinda situation I need my the other partner to give conducive suggestions.....
and this is to answer my Ex's qns of "What do u mean by Big Decisions?'... No bad uh, still rmb he asked that qns b4. haha!

yeah, didnt thought it would end up to be such a long random post. :D
some songs to end.... andrew's friend luciana and her bf sang it during LRM music fest and haha. pam me daphane mich and all of us melt that instance we saw the guy we spotted gg up to perform. MELT okay!

2009-12-06T22:59:00.001+08:00

i'm feeling really great; just kinda lost though...

2009-12-05T17:19:00.005+08:00

LRM MUSIC FEST!
drew my interest to guitar.......

THE PRICE OF VANITY

afraid of needles, this really makes me think twice.

2009-12-05T02:09:00.001+08:00

wHat's your deFinition of us.

2009-12-02T21:45:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm distracted from doing MCC report. haha
cause i've been reading 'wakeboard' 'wakeboard' 'wakeboard' 'wakeboard' and 'wakeboard' for the past 1 hour.....
makes me wanna go get change and head down to WAKEBOARD now!

2009-12-02T20:54:00.001+08:00

i sense another round of war coming...

2009-11-29T20:23:00.001+08:00

2009-11-28T20:27:00.001+08:00

Chivas crave with me anyone?

2009-11-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

: Headache

2009-11-23T22:58:00.002+08:00

How nice would it be for someone to be there beside you when you are so stressed up and frustrated with life.
How nice... I HATE URBAN LIFE!

*back to boring school work. :(

2009-11-22T19:19:00.001+08:00

FACILITIES MGT.
it is not all just about swimming pools.

and i m facing the 30% test tml

2009-11-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

HERE I COME FINALLY!...

2009-11-20T00:04:00.003+08:00

My prayer tonight will be:

"Father Lord, could I ask a little favour of you for me to remain a teen.

In the name of Jesus, Amen!"

Opps.. so long since I last prayed. Dont even remember how to do it now...

But my Father, I still have you deep deep in my heart. :D

2009-11-18T23:47:00.001+08:00

"If you love someone, let it go.
If it comes back to you, it's yours.
If it don't, it never was."

2009-11-18T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'M GETTING OLD!
segway in the rain and im running fever now!

2009-11-17T00:25:00.013+08:00

I WISH IT WENT RIGHT.

"i don't know how true were your words;
i don't know how true were your feelings.

but it seems like it all blew away like sawdust.

i don't know if you know how i am feeling
cause i don't know how you are

u said u feel cheated;
n here i am feelin' that way.''

Don't judge someone fully by your perception!
cause it is not always all that person is!

How emo.
and after a while later,
we'll all realise its just another repetition.
this is just how it will turn out when u put in more than 10% and then everything goes the wrong way

ON the lighter note,
Spa field trip was WTH man!
so unfair! i cant go into the sauna room! :(:(:( so UNFAIR!!!
the ambience and all was nice though!

I love my room now!
though i didnt got the bed i wanted.
my sister got the mirror and shelf which really makes LOOK bigger..

GIRLFRIEND! u should come n see my 'new' room!
and where the hell have u been for the past 1 month?
MIA ar uh?

BimBO, i dont care; i want to call it Dilenma.
it makes me so no motivation for projects now.................

cheerleading.
it spur me into thinking back about the so much regrets i have in life.
graduation's round the corner, no plans, no job, no love, nothing!
3 years just zoomed past!
how much i wanted to join dance during sec1, but i ended in band. REGRETED
how much i wanted to join cheerleading during year1, but i ended with no cca. REGRETED
how much i wanted to go for OSIP, but ended in ce. SUPER REGRETED!
NOW! work or uni. hopefully i dont make another regretul choice!

abit too early to look back the whole 2009, but since i've started, another 1 to add!

from 2009, i have learnt that.... (so field trip reflection! p.s. i haven start on it. haha. too much ejournals perhapes)
you dont need to have many many many friends.
just many many is enough!
and just a few good buddy will do.
those someone whom u know it feels right to pour it all out to.
those someone whom u trust and feel nothing to hide from.
those someone whom you could talk to with about anything under the sun.
and those someone i have found one more this year. and tt's u BIMBO! :)
and of course, those someone whom u know although they will MIA for long but will still have u in their mind. MY BELOVED SOPHIA YAP PEIJUN!
and that asshole IVAN GOH, my awesome neighbour whom knows so much but shows so little. meteor shower tml alright! HEHE. we go romantic romantic tgt haha!
haha. and the SUSAN who goes missing during school days.
JUSTIN HENG YIQI! whom i never can stand as a colleague! haha! so loso like auntie. but such a good listener when i am down, esp during my intership days. u nv know u stand a place somewhere right, haha!
OH AND HOW CAN I FORGET STANLEY FUNG YOKE KIT!( i hope i didnt spelled that wrong..) whom always only call when u have love problems. haha! but i was thru love problems that we became close friends.... so. yeah! haha. thanks for the discriminating comments which came alittle useful. i need more of those now. haha
CELINE TEO JIAMIN. my C & C sister. haha! like i said, thank u for opening me up to the other side of planet Earth.

if u read all the way till here. congrats! u got to know another 10% of me! :)

2009-11-15T01:17:00.000+08:00

2009-11-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

I LOVE U!, bimbo ...

Gone with the wind the EMO days. :D
Breathe the air of FREEDOMM!

2009-11-10T00:38:00.001+08:00

If only love's as easy as maths.
we would all be spared from this ugly creation of God.

2009-11-09T19:13:00.001+08:00

is what you left with me still here? caus' I dont feel its presence any longer.
leaving me in emptiness....

2009-11-08T21:47:00.001+08:00

2009-11-08T21:18:00.002+08:00

Lets move with the wind and hop on anything that come by.
be it just a bicycle, a car, a limosine, or a plane, you'll never know where it will land you.
Life is just as unpredictable.

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more.

Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me.

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak.

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now.

Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have the magic technique
When we sway I go weak.

I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
You know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now...

2009-11-08T00:53:00.000+08:00

2009-11-06T20:36:00.001+08:00

HEELLO!

I am CARMEN!

standing right here,

as simple as what you see.

2009-11-05T22:31:00.001+08:00

someone, save me from this pit i shouldnt have fell into.

2009-11-05T01:45:00.001+08:00

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realize it's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewhere's gotta give
A share in this relationship gets older, older

You know I'd fight for you but how could I fight
someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you now I want the best of
you I don't care if that's not fair

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are time it seems to me
I'm sharing you with memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it , show it
Then there's times you look at me
As thought I'm all that you could see
Those times I don't believe it's right I know it , know it

Don't make me promises baby you never did
know how to keep them well
I had the rest of you now I want the best
of you it's time to show and tell

Cuz I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

Cuz you and I
Could lose it all if you've got no more room
Nowhere inside for me in your life

Cuz I want it all
Or Nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all
Or Nothing at all
When you reach the bottom it's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

2009-11-04T00:04:00.004+08:00

Who really knows beneath this smile lies how much of frustration, sorrow, uncertainty and yearn for simplicity.

Can the radio stop going tonight's gonna be a good good night; cause it's not over here!

How great can it be to just live amongst the greenery, with goats grazing just outside your window, and your love embracing you through all moment in that peaceful and tranquil paradise. how great.. how great... how great! n time could just stop there forever

Alright alright, to be practical, you could only just lie on a patch of grass(maybe in some botanic garden or whatsoever) and gaze at the pitifully few stars up above there. SO POOR THING!

yeah, you guessed that right; this vulnerable stupehead again accidently engaged herself into the detestable evil web of love. AGONY!

leT me remind you, this is my screamroom! so stop giggling at how naive how ignorant how dumb how silly it is.

2009-11-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

CARMEN'S

Stop beating about the bush! YES, YOU!

2009-10-30T12:28:00.002+08:00

Life's all about walking alone.
Families, Friends, and Lovers come and go.
Only you yourself can't leave yourself.
SO, make sure you love youself and walk an exciting life!
and how exciting it will be depends on what's that fruit at the end of your walk; which is your goal in life.

2009-10-30T00:42:00.002+08:00

fung xu jie!
lets go OUT!
cable ski..
pulua ubin..
and, me and bimbo were wondering about LAos too. (HAHA!)

and u know what? I really want to thank u for your NEGATIVE & DISCRIMINATING comments! haha. it opened up my another perspective of my thinking... :D

that's what good friends are for! love u deepdeep man!

SOPHIA YAP!
where the hell are u?
u dont miss me arh uh!

BIMBO
you are like my lover; i see u almost everyday lar. school;work;play
haha!
thank u for going girlish-ly crazy with me for the past week. hehex.
and move on ya, we'll go party, we'll go crazy, we'll go 'EXOTIC" places in SG, and u'll find ur new love. :D
(we'll show sop we'll enjoy singlehood ourselves. haha!)

Celine TEO JIAMIN!
we hadnt go for our party.
dont think after attachment already u can dump me away. haha!

2009-10-22T15:07:00.002+08:00

The Question is...
Will all three of us be Single together?
come come join my single club! haha.
If gary reads this, he gonna kill me!

Do you Know?
There is this one person who conquered my mine and blocked all logical thinkings.

Someone once told me:
Men are logical creatures; they think through repeatedly before settling on a decision. Thus, they need more time.
Ladies, on the other hand, use their heart to feel. Once the feel is right, they made and stand firm on their decision unless proved wrong.

2009-10-20T22:30:00.002+08:00

Yeah, A not-so-bad start.
The lecturers were making it interesting.
Maybe its just because I hadnt been back for months.

Leisure & Resort Facilities mgt?
We learn how to manage a swimming pool??
haha! We shall see tml.

SPOOKTACULAR --> http://sentosa.com.sg/events_promotions/events/index.asp
a collaboration b/w TP.LRM and Sentosa.
You guys should go!
Amir was the Japanese soldier! haha. n I couldnt regconise him at first.

and yea, there was a blood fight at home just now.
you can't imagine how huge the arguement was.
2guys fighting at 10pm, I hope the police dont come knocking later.
that's how stubborn my family guys are. *shakes*
(My sis' temper isnt that great anyway!) haha!
But dont worry, it will the most be a cold war for days b/w them.

2009-10-19T23:01:00.006+08:00

You and I know it all best ourselves.

Ivan --> you're an ass! your friend's doing a much better job than you, CHEF! or rather, COOK!
BIMBO! --> Thanks for the Gift! I can tell herzy 'not wearing pink today'. haha!

and people, you should catch julie n julia.
I prefer the romance part thou! haha.
how loving their husbands are..
and bimbo, if u're thinking of cooking, dont burn down the kitchen alrights.
I dont mind having the duck... KEKE

Yeah, school's starting tomorrow!
Kinda looking alittle forward.
Hoping for a good start!
Timetable's shitty enough.
Its my last okay! (kinda cant believe it)

The best part is, School's starting and I'm starting to get broke too!
I hate cabbing all the way down to TP. (mich, lets share the burden!)

Damn!
I feel the boring projects coming in...
Just look at ole-bb!!
That's certainly something I dont miss.
Dear Ning, I know we'll have conflicts!. haha!
Let's just get over and done with it yeah

This is the kinda dumb things girl do!

2009-10-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

kinda feeling down. the feeling just not right. i need a swim!

Celine... lets go out for club one day when school starts okay!!! kakak
my new found clubbing mate.

Where are you, my Fish.

2009-10-17T17:54:00.003+08:00

2009-10-17T00:22:00.006+08:00

What a Great but not so Birthday.
What an interesting but not very Birhday.
What a how lonely but not really Birthday.
What a birthday that doesnt feels Birthday.

I did a good deed on my day!

Thanks to

Andrew for walking with me in the middle of Fullerton road when I turn 19
Celine for your interesting talks which last from when im 18 till im 19
Girlfr for that night
BimBO for ps-ing me and go chalet with Gary!
Aloy for calling when the clock strikes 12
Jonathan for your intention to treat drinks
Hasri for being the first few to wish me when i turn 19
Amalina for being the one who rmbs my birthday after work
Marcus for rmbering this old friend --- cause i rmbed ur bdae a few days back right!!!!
Qiuping for never forgetting to wish me on my birthday every year
Nas for wishing me real early
n everyone else who wished my on Facebook etc....
N stanley! for ur good intentions
and all of you whom rmbs the very day I'm born.

My best best best present's late.
P.S. I've yet recieve it.

2009-10-14T17:45:00.004+08:00

is it my wild imaginations or is it the fact

I wish i have a lie detector

Where are you?

2009-10-14T02:35:00.005+08:00

hmm. The light that shone upon me is the best 19th Birthday Present so far!
I'm Glad.

even thou, i still hope for the best best best present - the MrRight who can share my happiness at this very moment.
Oh well, No matter how discipline I am; I'm still a LIBRA! love's still important. wakaka...
afterall, how gr8 can life be w/o love, w/o the someone to share joys n woes, to go thru thicks n thins, to comfort n tease, to feel belonged.

DAMN!
So where is that real right person. i can feel u in the mist of the big blue ocean

2009-10-14T02:02:00.003+08:00

Dear ME!

I guess I've finally found the answer to 'why am I always feeling blue out of the sudden?'

I'm sure many of you out there have went thru' times when u feel really down n upset out of the blue, n u just want to stop everything and let time past, RIGHT?

Justin says its kinda normal; i thought so too but until i found my answer today.
a 'click' n i saw light.

for me,
I had been avoiding. Avoiding changes, facts, and life! So much so that when i turn back n compare, I hate the me now!

WHERE! WHERE! WHERE!?
where were all the resolutions i made.
dance.
swim.
life.

hmm.. DISCIPLINE!

Y did i messed up my whole life. n to realise n regret only now.

i totally screwed up n completely ignore it. i almost wanted to turn into an introvert isolating from what i use to enjoy. n of cox, and luckily, i couldnt make it as an introvert! haha!!

But its okay! Im glad i saw the light. I'm glad i found the answer to why am I also glummy n down. at least for now, i know, i'd never want to avoid again. i'd never want to lose disipline anyone. cause i dont wanna feel remorse n regretful anymore. everthing gonna change; it should change!

i shall piece up my life and this time, nothing,even love, can crash me down again.

u'll find the real radiant n cheerful Carmen once again!

anyway, the answer to the qns i've been pondering about is
love blinded me n stopped m y life for quite some moment.
it sucks! n its never ever gonna happen again!

2009-10-12T16:02:00.001+08:00

1. I think i kind of miss being loved.

2. UPDATE!, u freaking time-table.

3. birthdays are getting more n more meaningless.

2009-10-01T01:52:00.003+08:00

WOW! of the week :

M A L D I V E S

2009-09-29T00:43:00.001+08:00

Some things have never changed; its just buried.

2009-08-04T00:16:00.002+08:00

That's my room colour

END-OF-INTERNSHIP!

DAY1

2009-07-23T00:15:00.002+08:00

dear babys, better start saving up and plan my surprises alrights!
the ending of my internship surprise; n my upcoming bday surprise!
:)

Good LUck to ina and oliva for miss singapore finals!

i'm planning on a trip to sunway.. infos anyone? I AM SO EXCITED! hah.

Lastly, Men just sucks. don't u agree?, ladies

2009-06-09T01:09:00.001+08:00

27th party?
i really miss the times now..

Miss singapore Colleen Francisca's a role model.

2009-06-07T01:03:00.001+08:00

cant wait to see the miss singapore world 2009 finalist lists and photos.
hope oliva n ina are in!.

2009-06-07T00:55:00.002+08:00

for goodness sake, get that RED person OUTTA ME!
i admit the world is small; very small - we tend to meet people around each other.

but i do not want anything to do with that red lady; though i love red alot too.

freakingly, having my nails painted red reminds me of that red lady each time i look at my nails.

get her out! dun mix my world n her world.

2009-06-04T01:15:00.003+08:00

hadnt any interesting things to update recently.
there's one thing human shouldnt do when they're living a repetitious life; do not read other's blog. cox for all u know, u may just be upset by how interestingly their life is spelled out detailly in their blog.

Orlando. i;m kinda glad i didnt went for the webina which may led me into doing my internship with them today.
on the contray, i'm not so glad that i chose to do operations without realising it!.
this was what i told my coursemates: i do not want to do operations during attachment; thus not chossing zoo night safari etc...
but anyway, im kinda use to it.

2009-05-27T00:33:00.003+08:00

OMG!
hehex.

i really turned up for the interview invitation.
but with purely an intention to see how things are.
n i believe i flunged the interview, until a few minutes ago when i saw the results.

now, the irony is. should i or should i not go for the semi-finals.
i;ve got my attachment u know.

haha. should i just take a step n try more. haha...
cox i again pretty sure that i wont get into finals. :)

2009-05-25T00:35:00.003+08:00

Human.

Do you think you really know who you are?
Tell us more about yourself - the typical interview question.

I often cant answer this question well.

I think i am more of a person who blabbers nonsense non-stop instead of talking really sensible things.

I dun think everyone knows themselves well enough, isnt it.

aCTUALLY, that's the saddest thing about life - to not know yourself.

Maybe, singaporeans are just killed by the fast pace life, and everything is about boosting the economy. earning money, feeding mouths etc. killed not physical but mentally and spritually.
what is so good about being rich and weathly and having everything on earth, but not know yourself?

2009-05-19T00:17:00.002+08:00

I seriously do not understand why Safra is only open to NSmen.
sorry to whoever did the safra website. but the search engine is really damn bad!

I hope i can use the facilities there. the swimming pool. the gym. most importantly THE STEAM ROOM!

i had been looking for the answer for so long. and yet still couldnt find the answer cos the search engine is BAD. super BAD!.

each night, i pass by the beautiful jurong safra and how i wish i could just go in n use the facilities.

comeon God, just gimme a boyfr with that damn safra card.

i guess my craving for the apple of my eye is getting worst than a smoker craving for nicotine.

2009-05-16T01:20:00.001+08:00

Fickle-minded. Balance in everything. Filrtatious.

that's Libra.

my heart's skipping again no matter how hard i'm trying to control.

2009-05-14T00:28:00.003+08:00

Attachment is like a Lucky draw; getting a good deal is always the lowest possibility. Once you fall into the trap, there's no turning back and you have to survive in that harsh condition even it means bite yourself and drink your own blood. Thus, i guess, FYP should be still better than SIP.
But on the contray, SIP opens you up to the real world and wakes up your idea. It makes you stop slacking and starting thinking ALOT like never before.

I guess never stopping to weigh the advantages and disadvantages helps me think positively of the painful path i'm being through. And I have to not stop finding more pros than cons to make myself happier caus' no matter how I feel, I still have NO CHOICE! I'm Glad to be born with this mind which ensures everything is balanced, though it can be tiring to balance everything at times. this tireness cause me to stop thinking alot before my attachment. and now, i have to start thinking again caus I HAVE NO CHOICE! I shall close this ability of my mind again once this stupid slow months end and perhape re-open it when I need it in the real world in future.

2009-05-12T00:38:00.008+08:00

2009-05-11T01:37:00.003+08:00

i wonder, is it normal for us human to feel blue and bottled up with some uneasy feelings that you don't even know what it is?

if u hadnt had that kinda feeling, or haven got it long enough to remember how it feels?
Let me remind u now!

It sucks to the core.

but such an easy-to-please girl like me could be cheered up for a moment with a doting message. *hint hint! hhaa!

Mas Selamat is everywhere on the newspapers now. what's worst is every article's talking about more or less similar content. what a watse of the paper, and my time to read all the looks-interesting-only articles.
a weird description of this newpaper: A BimBO!; looks interesting, but in fact empty.

2009-05-10T01:36:00.004+08:00

Alright, This is not gonna be a sad post. AHha.
You guys can start counting how many happy posts i'm gonna write.. HEEhe..
Not that I'm into another r/s; I'm not ready yet.

So NOW, count back. when was your last visit to the Singapore BOtanical Garden?
http://www.sbg.org.sg/
I wouldnt say its a wonderful place. but it's definately peaceful and quiet.
n its FFFOOCC too! the main concern to the cheapos singaporean. No offences, I'm a singaporean too!.

yeps, out of my tight schedule, I visited this nice place today.
it has been a long time since i'm out in the sun with the nature.
though i'm sweating as usual like a loose water tap; the aftermaths feeling is very relaxing.

I would say this is my first time there as i hadnt any memories of that place though i know i had been there on some old-school excursion trips. i suppose sadness sub-consciously earsed some memories. i believe that. at least for myself. I know it does happens on me.

alrights, let some low megapixels photos from my phone do the ~~talking~~ blogging.

The following shots will be from :Photographer of the Day: Mr Heng justin!
This trip would have been better had michy Bimbo and Girlfr Sop were there with me n heng justin.

My today didnt just start with this wonderful visit to make me blog so happily now!
It also ended with a 'moon-watching' session with Ivan.

I guess my sub-consiciousness had also erased my other moon-watching sessions with any other ppl. Ahaha!
I find myself back-to-usual today; the normal ever-talkative girl who craps nonsense to anyone.
oh, the short walk to safra jurong make me realise that place is not yet open today. and we had an interesting short conversation with the two guards of that place.. Ahah!

i've got a short lesson about the sky satellite moon and space from ivan too! hahaa.. not bad uh.

at work, i found myself two elder brother who dotes on me too! EHEH!
i just love been doted on. that's why the 'xiao nu ren' type suits me best in a r/s.. almost nth else cld make me any happier.
TODAY WAS NOT LIVED WATSED! :)i just hope today never ends. but i know, since i'm right here reflecting on TODAY, everything's had ended. I could only hope for a better tml. or wait for another good day for me. there's more downs than ups, isn't it?

Some randoms:
My bloody hell sisterkaren used my lappy!!!!! >}.

Our special drink! i just love strawberries.
MIchy bimbo's just a natural pretty, isn't she?
We had Han's. MY FAV GRILLED FISH!

2009-05-09T01:56:00.006+08:00

Tell ME!:

STOP looking back and START thinking about how to enjoy life single-ly with whatever's yours.

Cosmetic Surgery?

Who doesnt wants to look good?. He/She is obviously lying!

To be frank, I'd go under the knife as soon as possible once I'm financially stable.

My mum did that, my aunties did that. So why can't I?

It's just that tiny witty little thing that I want to do eversince I know the word 'pretty'.

*pretty is different from beautiful. You can be born beautiful, but you are made pretty."

Perfect is unneccessary when you know you look good enough to boost your self-

esteem; it makes everything else goes smoother. It's absolutely a good Investment,

my friends!

But I've got to remind you, I'm great at dreaming big and slacking big at the same time.

Dreams only get fulfiled when you have the right motivation; and i've yet to find this push-

factor.

2009-05-08T00:44:00.002+08:00

Having lost count of the deep scars,
I'd still yearn to hear love
for its is the only medicine better than time.

So stop waiting and come tell me I love u
cause its more important than I love u.

2009-05-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

I just came back from a pedicure session at JP2 and after listening to the story of the pedicurist, I suddenly envy her alot.

Like most other pedicurist, she is from China and is married to a singaporean 11 years ago. I envy her because, she is 12 years older than me but have been married for so long!. She must have got a lovely husband. Furthermore, she has been travelling with her husband to many countries for work....

She's young, yet have experienced so much so much. this is what calls for my envy.

2009-05-04T01:23:00.003+08:00

went out with BIMBO! for tanning!

things have changed quite abit at the 4-everchanging island; including the KM8 we were planning to go have tanning n fishnchips!

so.. we went to cafe del mar instead; the only one place ppl think of for tanning.

N then, we met up with justin, raheem, nesh for wolverine. n saw chung too
bt i didnt talk much. smth's really wrong somewhr in me.
somethings have changed in this 'most talkative band member'.

and i keep hearing this one sentence from raheem that's repeating in my ear.
Carmen's blog sure full of broken english.

yea, i guess so uh. must change. haha. soon uh.. a few entries later..

AND MR JUSTIN HENG! i want photo...............
SEE! my blog is lacking of them.

2009-05-02T01:27:00.003+08:00

OK, another short entry cheena man. haha

I miss the island.
I think i might get a job thr after attachment to support myself financially during the last sem of my diploma n before i get a fulltime job..

money's nv enough even when u tot things would be better with more income per month

on the other hand, i have yet to fulfil one of my wish to be an OL. haha!
i dunno why, but i am just so into the OL thing now.
OL gets public holidays, get 9 to 5 shift. gets everything else someone in operations nv gets!

i had been operations in every job i have been in.. i m so sick of it.
cox i only enjoy serving with my heart.
i believe true service only comes from the heart.

2009-04-30T02:31:00.002+08:00

My girlFr's getting herself on course.. I think she should really stick to it and master it since its something she likes... its not too late now for her..

I almost forgot to submit second e-journal. but i just did anyway.

now i miss the island.. i suppose its still a quite nice place to work in anyway.
everything do change and i should adjust myself to adapt to it. that is what it should be!

I WANT TO september to come soon...

when september ends.... i'll be freed!

2009-04-27T18:27:00.007+08:00

Yea, third time of the day. U guessed it right, I must be mad.

I've spent 1/2 of my last off day of the month at home caus' I'm simply too broke to step out.

And I am gonna stay the next half of today home most prolly too. caus' i've been running to the toilet often today.

I ate prunes... in the morning.

OH NO! Bimbo just called to cfm if i'm heading to her place.

I said 'no!.. i've got diarrhoea.'

'but sophia maybe coming u know?'

i cut in 'really... i cfm with u again..!'

I miss my GIRLFR!! bloody pick up the phone NOW LAR!

think i hadnt met her for a month... she missed call me a few times but i hadnt the time to get back to her.. i feel so bad now.. hehex!

i'm sorry, girl.

That's me, celine and irene behind the bar when celine was at holland v.

can u see that shagged and messy me?

I wanted to makeup on my previous boy's face once. bt we didnt lasted long for me to do it! haha. so my brother become my first victim today.. but i dunt think its his first time having make up on.. so he seems quite happy n excited about getting his face painted.

2009-04-27T17:16:00.002+08:00

Applause dies away..
Trophies gather dust.
Winners are soon forgotten

A candle loses nothing if its used to light another one.

2009-04-27T14:23:00.003+08:00

VERY BORING NEH!

2009-04-21T00:27:00.001+08:00

I don't know wassup with this ugly blog skin.

2009-04-20T15:54:00.000+08:00

Hui Gu Niang. Cinderella.

2009-04-19T00:47:00.003+08:00

i've plans...
shift back into a room with my sister. caus' my brother's older now, he needs his own room alr.
so... i've plans to do a super nice room, now that i have the financial ability..

i've plans to do a new hairstyle with jean yip too.

i've plans to go for themakeoverinc to get my entry photos done too.

well. i need more things to spice my life up.

2009-04-13T21:16:00.002+08:00

What is the question that you hate and love to be asked?
Ans: 'Why are you Single?'

Hate - It's reminding you that you are Single. Nobody wants you.
Love - When being posed this question, you know you still have the beauty.

2009-04-12T01:01:00.002+08:00

today was a happening day at work

first my boss came to dinner with his family. i bring in his family w/o knowing that they are his family. so shocking. luckily it went smooth.

then teresa teng came to dine for dinner.
she looks the same on screen and off. so i recognised her at once.

had always wished joshua would come n dine.. instead is teresa... wha lau eh.haha.

her smiles and expressions same as on screen.

last happening thing b4 i knock off, the huge tree across the road FELL!!!!!!!!!!!!
it was a loud 'Bang" and i witness the tree falling down..
chef said there was a smoker below the tree who went ranning away from a disaster of being crushed under a tree..

ok.. thats all.
i m stil amazedd tt i saw teresa for that 1 whole hour.
if only it was joshua.....

2009-04-11T00:43:00.002+08:00

You know?

I feel like I have many many things to blog about. But I can put anything in to words.
My world is only filled with love; and always is only.
Its a super duper bad thing when u dun have someone to share it with

cus its smth that needs two hands to clap, U know.
n i dun know why i am so into the 'u know' now.

alright, something's wrong with my lappy AGAIN!
it seems to restore itself, i dunno y, maybe U KNOW.

Dreams.. do u have a dream?
i have quite a number... but I dun think i've done my fullest to fulfil any.
age's catching up... OMG i m using this pharse..
yea, age's catching, ! exactly! HOW TO DREAM SOMEMORE?
many times, i feel im gonna let these dreams diminish n lead a normal boring, mundane life....
God may take it away, take away a life w/o purpose.

its difficult to fulfil dreams. or i should say, i am lazy.
then, i have been lazy for the past decade of my life. Oh yEa, i used the word ;DECADE:.

lazy = serves me right for leading this mundane life NOW.

Materialistics... most girls are.. i learnt this word from my mum.
since young, she preaches me not to be one of such girls..
so thanks to her tt i m not those kinda extreme materialistics girls.
but i feel that i m becoming more like 1 soon. haha.

and if u have read all the way till here, i suppose u are bored too! haha
otw, u must be v interested in my borin routine life uh. haha..

ok. its pretty much of my thinkings in this entry...

Yea. something else.

SWIMMING! i am back on the swimming swimming swimming.
n so coincidentally, JOshua's article on iweekly is also about swim swim swim. hahahahhah
see. my dreams cells are acting and making me excited again. haha

if only i have a pursuiter like him. it would be a good catch laR! haha. maybe, maybe not.

n joel n him has got a little bit of same features. appearance i meant. the face. haha. was fb-ing with coverpage of joshua bside tt why saw the similarity..

I MISS MICHELLE BIMBOBIMBOBIMBO!
N my girlFr of cox!

but i know, i can just get back to the worry-free life i led b4 sip.
i need to work towards some of my dreams already!.
and work on the path i'll walk for the next few decades of my life.
this is smth boring that everyone has to go thru.............

actually, my dreams are those options for my 'next few decades of my life'.

oh ya, did i mentioned somewhr, i have been thinking of getting new gadgets..
a viao lappy. RED colour!!!
a new phone. preferably flip.
and i got influence by joshua, i wan to get a bottle of vodka with cutted strawberries inside. haha
yea, i still love strawberries. this has been for a few years.. i have daring dreams about strawberries too!haha
when i grad, after o levels, i planned to do a business all about strawberries.. its still one of my dreams.. but not that kinda i want to really fulfill kind now.
n i just read the article. tt thr's a mp3 that can be used in the water, when u're swimming.
tt's cool right... i might go for it too. haha.. but funny uh, use tt in the dirty swimming pool.
hahaha

maybe i will get it, if i could afford to swim in country clubs or club houses. or maybe my soon boyfr is so bloody rich to suport a turning materialistic girl like me. hahah.

alright, i m tired to add colour or to beautify the entry.. so. if u managed to read till here. congrats! i've poured out wadeva i think i wad to say.